Not
Literally :P
It feels like it's been a million years since I wrote. All that I've
been doing in this time seemed so pointless that I finally remembered this blog
I owned.
You know those times in childhood when you
keep playing hide-and-seek every single day with the new friends you've just made
in your neighbourhood? Just because they don't like to play anything
else?
One fine breezy day, your mom finds a
tattered newspaper-and-sticks kite from the attic. You think of that time on
the beach when you watched your uncle make that kite for you. You remember that
you'd lost your fear of the sea that day and had refused to leave when your
time was up. And in those memories, you sit and painstakingly glue together the
tattered edges. And as proud as a Papa with a newborn, you display that kite to
your 'gang'. And the new life begins till you find a new passion.
Childhood was so simple and care-free, now that you
see it from the distant pedestal of adulthood. I wouldn’t exactly put myself on
the top of that pedestal yet, seeing as I am only 19, but I’ll be there soon.
And poised at this leap to the top, I’ve made a few startling realisations.
Several, in fact.
I wouldn’t
be running around with fixed passions for weeks like the tattered kite or the
hide-and-seek.
I would have
priorities and sub-priorities in almost everything (or everyone).
I can’t just
follow Mom’s instructions blindly.
I have to
run things responsibly (albeit, that responsibly that there’s no standard
definition for it).
I have a lot
of people to answer to about how responsibly (again, each one meaning a
different responsibility) I run things.
There are
rules of conduct and decorum even amongst people I’ve known all my life.
I’ve to open
my doors for a new life outside.
A whole new
world is out there.
I’ve a
battle to wage and changes to make happen.
So,
getting to this verge in life is not exactly threatening, it is a position
where I learn that I can make changes in my life, my circle, and to this world
itself. I can clear my mind and accept this cloak of responsibility or shrink
back and cower under the shadows.
It ain’t
exactly a difficult choice, is it?
I
chose to live and show this world that my life can be as fruitful as many
others who’ve been on this point on the pedestal. I chose to take that leap to
the top with my eyes on the goal, the clear spot on the pedestal where I’d
build my castle of greatness. And let my fireworks off. Hopefully soon.
Looking forward to meeting wonderful people and my more-than-wonderful friends right there!
Love,
PPD
